Another ghastly school week is gone, with the additional strain of worrying about a friend who’s in a lot of pain and distress right now.
To witness this has been like standing on a bridge and watching someone going closer to the edge, and finally announcing they’re going to jump. All the time you’ve tried cheering them up, but to no avail. Even as they jump you cry “Please, don’t do this!”, but they don’t hear, or won’t listen. I feel like a complete failure as a friend, wondering what I might have said that added to the pain, or what I didn’t say that could have made a difference. At the same time everyone has their own free will, and no matter how much I’d want to, I can’t force them to accept my help.
I pray the Lord will help me to be a better friend to those I know, and that He will strengthen them in their time of need.